I bought new towels! Now that isn’t really something deserving of a comment, much less an award…however, in many ways it was a confirmation of my life, and emotionally where I am currently seated, and no…before you say it…I am not all washed up
Many times in my life, certain inanimate objects have come into focus, almost representative of my life and the direction it is taking. Towels appear to have such symbolism, although I have no idea why…personally, I would have selected Sean Connery if I had been asked.
When I was getting married at the ripe and stupid age of nineteen, I had a shower…not a bath don’t get ahead of me. My mother-in-law wanted to set up a registry, and asked what color towels I wanted. Seriously…at nineteen who thinks of towels? Anyway, I remember thinking of the first two colors that came into my head, green and orange…OMG why? So of course, we painted the bathroom a light green, and I got towels…towels, I might add, which lasted longer than the marriage. Either that was some great Terry Cloth and JC Penney should be proud, or they weren’t used much…even if I was, but those are details I won’t blog you with.
Years later, when I had literally thrown in the towel and started life again, this time on my own, I bought bath sheets. For those who don’t know, they are expensive, oversized and thick terry cloth towels, that everyday towels look at with wash cloth envy. I also bought them in black, something I had always wanted, and saw them a confirmation if my new life. Yes, life was good, money was good, job was hard, but for once, everything was in the black.
A few years later, my mother called me very upset, she and dad had gone to the mall to get me a birthday gift and he got lost. She had waited in their truck, and after too much time had passed, a man came out to find her, saying Dad was extremely disoriented, and sitting in the open area of the mall. After they were home, I went to see him, and he didn’t remember what had happened, just that he needed to buy me towels…seriously? The incident as I look back was when he began his final journey of age, and I would eventually stop working to be there when they needed me. However, I did have beautiful white and yellow towels in my bathroom that I never knew I needed, but he HAD to buy for me. They were almost like a ray of sunshine breaking through white clouds next to the black ones I loved. Even though I missed the symbolism, they were reminding me of the good in my life, as I journeyed through many years of darkness and emotional pain.
After my somewhat recent divorce, I abruptly cleared out my stained, bleached, hair dyed and faded black towels, (one green one was still valiantly hanging on some 33 years later!) and bought new ones. The day I hung them up and looked at how they were on the shelves, there wasn’t a mismatched one in the lot and I felt the same way. For the first time in my life, I was in control and order of my life, I was accountable to nobody else, and well…it felt good. Indeed, my emotions may have been rung out, and left to dry more than a few times, but I finally found my place, absorbing the world and people around me.
As I look at those new moss green towels – I know green…who knew? I think of all the times in life when something is spilled, a woman goes into unexpected labor, an animal is hurt or a baby is splashing in water deliriously happy, and what is it we say? Get me a Towel! I don’t believe it is just a coincidence, there truly is something behind the power of the Terry Cloth that makes a situation better, or at least memorable for the person in control. I guess for now, however, it will remain one of those questions that God and I discuss someday, after JFK, Jimmy Hoffa, Area 51 and Dodo Birds.
I’m not sure what the next turn in my life will be, however, I am almost certain that before the final curtain, there will be a towel somewhere, and I will probably need it, to again absorb something important. Regardless, it’s a sign I have grown comfortable seeing, and have truly learned that life isn’t always a beach, even if you do have a great towel.